By Ed Smith
In the final extract from his book, the author describes how his
England hopes were shattered by one ball and one umpiring decision
during an intense afternoon at the Oval
....The old truism is that cricket is a team game played by
individuals. That guarantees mixed emotions and complicated scenarios.
Coming off the back of three consecutive failures, I may need to play
well here in order to secure a place on the winter tours. But my form
may not be the only determining factor. It may come down to either me
or Graham Thorpe, who is batting immediately ahead of me.
The standard practice is to lie about such things. That it never came
into your head. That it is a straightforward business, simply wanting
the best for yourself and your team-mates. It might be a good idea to
try to think like that, but it is hard not to think about the future
and how it is being influenced by other people.
So, as I watched Graham move towards his hundred, I had several
different emotions. First, it was obviously good for England, and we
needed it. Second, it was a great story in itself he has been
through huge trauma, and now cricket was providing a glorious moment
of celebration. Third, I knew the equation for me was getting simpler
with every minute and every run.
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